I’ve realised I’ve not mentioned a few things lately. Firstly my exercising has progressed from skipping and freeform strength training to bodybuilding which I gave up about 12+ years ago. I’m really enjoying the feeling of working my body with weights and the strength gains. It’s pretty tiring but in a very good way and I’d say its helped to level my moods, just as skipping did too. I’m also keeping a little stricter to my eating too which is helping massively too as I don’t get too much of an energy drop off. I’m certainly starting to feel that keeping rhythms is doing wonders for me and its not as boring as I thought it might be. I’m actually enjoying not yoyoing much at all. I’m missing the highs and the superhuman feelings, but not that much really because I know I crash quickly and struggle with my paranoid thinking. I’ve had maybe 2-3 moments today where I thought I was loosing control but managed to notice just before dropping right off. I’m feeling quite good about that and am pretty aware of it now.
