I’m feeling a little mild anxiety this morning. Last night I struggled to relax. I’m not sure if it showed or not. Normally I can unwind quite easily, but last night I had a few things rolling around in my mind. At times I feel like a child who needs someone to make some decisions for them. I think part of my anxiety is because I called my business banking people to switch accounts to trade as a limited company, which was very easy, but it’s taken me a year to get around to making that call. I had so many false panicked reasons in my mind stopping me from doing it, all of which were unfounded and false. Anyway it’s done now, but it has stressed me a little. I guess it’s because it was seen as something completely out of my control. Normally I handle things ok. Normally I’m in full control though, although at times I do like giving up that control. It’s a burden too at times. I guess I fear too many things and then my mind spirals with them, speeding up, playing out various scenarios and working out how to deal with the fake scenarios. It’s not easy.
I’m hoping to get a job finished today so I can bill the customer. I guess I’m a little anxious about the weather today too. It won’t matter to the customer if the job isn’t finished. It only matters to me and that’s only because I let it matter! I feel crazy sometimes…
