I’m struggling to concentrate. I’ve realised this morning whilst doing qigong that I’ve not had full concentration for several days now. I think that I should go to bed early tonight and try to recuperate some normal mindedness. It’s hard to notice when it happens because it creeps in very gently. Its gone before I have a chance to act. Maybe I’m just too weak. I’m finding it hard to relax these last few days and the tension is getting too much. It never seems quiet. Life and my mind are constantly chattering away. I think I need to write lists out again so as not to forget anything because that just causes stress and anxiety, which lead me down a hole.
I honestly thought I was getting somewhere with having a hold over this. It’s affecting my wife too, which isn’t good and that in turn affects me even more through paranoia. The affects of which come out in horrible ways, horrible feelings and thoughts. Where to go with it? I don’t know. I do know it will pass but I don’t know when, that’s the problem.
I don’t have many answers right now. I need someone to talk to but I don’t know who.
