It’s Friday already and I’ve realised how quickly this week is passing on. I’ve achieved a good amount at work but haven’t set myself specific daily goals to achieve. Maybe I’ve needed this break, but maybe it’s time to get back to small goal setting daily and weekly. I’ve found my way again after my mind drifted off again. I honestly think that keeping to a set routine has the most benefit to me and I’d pushed it to one side slightly. I must keep to my circadian rhythms quite closely, it’s not always what others want, but if it stops me drifting in the wilderness for a week and a half then it’s very worthwhile. One goal I need to keep to is knowing myself and being fully honest with myself. Doing those things in the past has led me to understanding who I am fully. I’ve also lost my way of my philosophy of life in general and it’s high time to regain that too. When one waters themselves down for the sake of others one looses part of oneself and with it goes the part oneself that the other was drawn too. I must strive to become the best version of myself I can be, possibly negating the ego whilst at it too.
Ego is the bane of one and the blessing too. Are we really individuals or are we part of a vast collective? Are we so separate? Or for that matter are we so connected?
Well today is a good day to start being the best I can be, there really is only today, only ‘now’. Now is all there is and all there ever will be.
Ah, one final thing which I know but I’m not sure I’ve admitted to fully. I have what is classed as a mental illness, it’s a curse and a blessing all at the same time. It’s time to use the blessings fully to my best advantage and time to understand the curse of it fully so that may benefit me too.
