Today I started an email to an administrator of a forum that I was removed from but allowed back into. I didn’t go back on even though I am allowed to. I thought it best to straighten myself out first. I certainly am in a very good place, and in part that’s why I deleted the email before sending it. I’m giving serious thoughts as to if I should go back on just yet or not. I could go back on to be a positive model for others and to help them if I can. I’m Conscious of the fact that it might be a trigger I guess. I’m also aware that I have an addictive side to myself. That’s why I deleted facebook. I’ve not deleted Twitter though and I manage to steal clear of that pretty much all of the time. It’s funny really because the forum is anonymous but I do like the people on there. Mostly they’re very kind souls. It’s got me pretty torn to be honest. I’m a strong believer in helping others, but also first and foremost helping myself. I guess I can always ask to be removed for a while if I get caught up in it, or is it best to steer clear….
I’m also in a period of very deep introspection and I honestly think I’ve come a very long way. I need to keep going forwards with my works. It’s moving along very well and I don’t need distractions. The introspection is brought about by and is part of my ritual angelic workings.
