Friends make a huge difference. Life is good. Sometimes we just have to step back and take a deep breath and chill the fuck out. 

A friend and I have been chatting on messenger this afternoon. He’s told me to keep an eye on my moods as he’s seen the signs building. We chatted about where we are both at. I know what he means. My thoughts have been faster.  I admitted to him that yesterday I came close to going up the road to bash someone, they really do deserve it. They were working 2 houses up from me and I found myself running through in my mind what I’d do and how I’d do it. My mate was impressed that I didn’t. Too much trouble would come from it for sure as it would’ve looked unprovoked to anyone witnessing it. Whereas I know it would be about the abuse he put someone through and me sorting him out for it.  I wasn’t wound up either.  Luckily I used the energy to crack on with my work.

I guess it’s that time of year for me where things can build up. It’s around now where I ponder if I’ll make it through winter this year, a thought I have every year, and my dreams have been much more vivid too.  Hmmm.

 On another note tomorrow is Unminding on Twitter spaces and will then afterwards become a podcast on various platforms including their website which I’ve shared before.  Give Gem and Sam a listen. Here’s their website again. www.theunmindingproject.com

We are heading into a dark winter. This winter will be hard and harsh for so many and it’s all planned. It’s planned to bring us all to our knees. They want to kill off the middle class and go back to having only the elites and surfs. They’re killing the financial markets off, inflation is spiralling out of control (real world inflation not fake cpi), electricity and heating bills are increasing as is food. We are facing a huge global famine too. It’s all by design. It’s a perfect storm to bring untold misery. They’ve planned the takeover for decades, centuries even.  The next step after the financial crash that’s coming will be CBDC’s and they are created to enslave humanity.  There’s no escape from them. They will be programmable and they will have your servitude or you won’t eat.  Think I’m talking rubbish or paranoid? Look into it all yourself. It’s horrifying. I honestly wish I were unwell and that writing this could be blamed  on that but alas, no, I am quite well and quite aware. Get your money out of the banks. Buy gold and silver. Keep cash to hand snd for fucks same fill your cupboards with food. Hell is coming. 

https://www.theunmindingproject.com/

It’s been a while since I posted in here. Lots has happened some I’ll post about separately though. For now however I’d like to share this website. I’ve chatted privately with Gemma and Samantha through Twitter although they maybe don’t know who I am. What I can say is they’re absolute stars and care very much about helping others by talking all things mental health etc. They do a  Twitter spaces most weeks which is also a podcast. Take a look at their website.

https://www.theunmindingproject.com

I’m getting the feeling that great things are heading my way. It gives me chills down my spine.  I’m manifesting my better reality now. Life is moving forwards to great things. I embrace it. It flows to me. Life is good. Life is there to be lived fully. 

Life is good.  Ive found focus again. Where we let our thoughts go to is where our life heads. If we think everything is wrong in the world our lives start to feel wrong. If we see the good in the world life becomes good. Each time I get a bad though, which can be often, I register it and then try to find something good to focus on.  It’s a fine line between thinking it’s best not to give a fuck and thinking it’s good to give a good fuck.  I’m taking control again and it’s amazing to see synchronicity peeping at me again. Talking with people and realising we share almost the same thinking and about to say the exact same words tells me on back on the good path although it’s ever winding. There’s a lot of shot going on in the world and it shouldn’t be ignored but it also shouldn’t be all one gives time to.  We can only ever change ourselves and our thinking first before we look to change other things. I’m finding now I’m feeling good life seems better and I’m getting along with others better too.  Spring helps too. I often wonder if I’ll make it through winter but each winter is easier.  I’ve found a like minded friend in America who I chat too about life and investing and they’re an enormous help. We run things past each other and now my thinking is more on track I’m noticing nee investment opportunities too which hopefully help my friends too.  Since investing more money and time into creating a brighter future I’ve noticed my future and my now seem brighter.  It amazes me how life hasn’t gotten harder because of investing so much, in fact it’s all good, and I’m amazed at how much I now have invested. Little acorns grow into mighty oaks!  Life is good.  

From the depths of despair the beast awakens.

It’s time has come.

Blood flows through its veins.

Dark and bitter within.  

Smoke rises from the fires oh hell.

The power floods forth.

Will angels come to the fight once again?

The battles are long and hard.

Darkness falls as the light fades.

We all fade to black. 

Its dark, windy and cold. Winter is getting in full swing. Where are we headed as a world? Death? Destruction? Dark times ahead.

It’s 3am. It’s New Year’s Day. I’m sat on the side of a road.  I’ve got up, got dressed and had to leave.  My brain is playing up, bordering on psychosis at a guess. Not good. Everything is fucking up. Kara is drinking most nights. She’s getting sarky with me a lot. Funny nasty remarks when others aren’t around. Passive aggressive behaviour. It’s fucking me up. I’m not much better.  New Year’s Eve I was asleep by 10pm. There was no point staying up. She went to bed at 7:30 drunk and being sarky. I’ve had enough. I think I’ll put the house on the market and fuck it all off. I can’t be doing with it. The bills are too expensive. We should never have moved there. I was pressured to move even while my mum was dying. Fuck it all. Years later it’s no better.  My daughter wonders why I’m always grumpy. She’s up nearly all night. Our electricity is going up to over £400 a month. A.  Fucking. Month. Most of the bills I pay. Enough. It has to stop. My daughter is also drinking when she shouldn’t be. I wonder where she gets that from… do I go home or do I go fill up my van somewhere abd just go…

Edit. I’m home. I did manage to run a deer over on the way home. It’s neck broke. I reversed to check on it. I should have put it in the van for the freezer really.  I also haven’t mentioned the violent thoughts I’ve been having tonight of very graphic violences.  Not good.  I should sleep.  

Happy belated birthday C