A friend and I have been chatting on messenger this afternoon. He’s told me to keep an eye on my moods as he’s seen the signs building. We chatted about where we are both at. I know what he means. My thoughts have been faster. I admitted to him that yesterday I came close to going up the road to bash someone, they really do deserve it. They were working 2 houses up from me and I found myself running through in my mind what I’d do and how I’d do it. My mate was impressed that I didn’t. Too much trouble would come from it for sure as it would’ve looked unprovoked to anyone witnessing it. Whereas I know it would be about the abuse he put someone through and me sorting him out for it. I wasn’t wound up either. Luckily I used the energy to crack on with my work.
I guess it’s that time of year for me where things can build up. It’s around now where I ponder if I’ll make it through winter this year, a thought I have every year, and my dreams have been much more vivid too. Hmmm.
On another note tomorrow is Unminding on Twitter spaces and will then afterwards become a podcast on various platforms including their website which I’ve shared before. Give Gem and Sam a listen. Here’s their website again. www.theunmindingproject.com
