I’ve realised today how good life is. Earlier I  was feeling so good I was almost tearful. Life is a very precious gift that we are given. We need to embrace it fully. I intend to live my life fully, as fully as I can. I think I’ve set false limits upon myself and upon what I want to achieve in my life. It’s time I really went for it all. Life is beautiful. Time to love and live. 

Yesterday I didn’t physically do any work. I did however get on with some paperwork. I got several prices out. So all is good. I’m pretty relaxed today and the day has started well. 

I’m hoping today will be physically productive too. Fingers crossed. I’m relaxed enough to take what comes and my rhythms are pretty much back to normal.  Life is good. 

I’ve been rained off today. Normally I would stress but not today. I’ve done some paperwork , there’s more to do, but most importantly I have gone back to bed and had a sleep. It’s really rejuvenated me. I think my circadian rhythms have been thrown a little lately but are pretty much back on track now.  The extra snooze was just what my mind needed. I had one late yesterday afternoon too. I think my body and mind have been running on a bit of adrenaline lately and since resting a little more over the last few days my body has grown again from my work outs.  I’m feeling pretty calm and I will do more paperwork shortly and more meditation too.

It’s Monday morning and I’m not anxious. That’s good. I’m pretty relaxed too. I know where I’m working and what I will be doing.  The weather should be cooler too which is just what I need.  All is good. I’m pleased to say my wife and I are getting on really well again. I’m relieved. It was looking like we might of been breaking up this time last week.  It goes to show that if one tries a little harder sometimes then life can come good again. 

I have some good jobs coming up and money should be much better too. That certainly helps things. 

it’s Father’s Day here in the UK and I’ve rested and meditated lots this morning. I’d actually forgotten when I got up so it was a really lovely surprise when my children have me gifts.

I think that I’ve come to realise that I NEED to meditate much more. I must try to remember this when I start to meditate less and less. It’s good for my mind and my body. It’s only when it’s been tricky and I go back to it that I realise how much it helps me. I’ve reached fantastic levels of calmness and inner spirituality with it. 

Have a good day.

I’m feeling pretty normal today, which is good but strange. I guess it’s hard to judge what normal actually is because I don’t know how a ‘normal’ person feels or thinks . Anyway I feel pretty level. A good level, not great , not fantastic, but good. 

again at last I have clarity. It’s a good feeling. I am taking qigong more seriously again and will start meditating properly again too. I used to meditate for upwards of 30 minutes every morning. It’s amazing how only now that I have clarity again that I can see I was under stress and had anxiety. I am using the bipolapp everyday too. 

I am working today and it should be an easy day. If it’s not I will leave early, which I can do as I’m self employed. I’m relaxed anyway so things should be cool. 

It’s amazing how much  difference one week can make with a relationship or life.

I honestly think I should become a hermit, well even more than I am already!  People confuse me , they are unpredictable and don’t use logic how I do but life is beautiful again. 

I’ve had a normal day and it feels great. I’m relieved to be back to my most awesomeness. I am immortal. My thinking is clear and straight. All is good. I have practiced a few rituals over the last 2 weeks to gain clarity so thats good. 

I guess we all have struggles within. From trying to do what we are told is right to what we ourselves believe is right. I found this short article quite good on how mental health is perceived differently in a non western culture.  http://earthweareone.com/what-a-shaman-sees-in-a-mental-hospital/

I’ve always felt that it’s a blessing and a curse.  I guess we can all be too quick to judge others and their minds or their characters.  We need to learn to love and understand the diversity that we have. X

change. Change is the only constant in any of our lives. We can either embrace it or run from it. It’s out choice , but it will still be there. It will still change things. Life goes on and we either move forwards or stagnate. I think I have feared those changes lately. I’ve not practiced my qigong properly, it’s been half hearted because my mind hasn’t been in it but now I can see this and I’ve changed it. How much can I change as a person or as myself? Who am I really ? 

How can we start to embrace the changes in our life or let things go? Things that we’ve held onto for years or built up over years like fears ? I don’t know but I guess being open to them will help. I’m feeling happier in myself again.