It’s Thursday already. My stomach is a little unsettled and was yesterday too. I think I’m stressing myself out a bit. I woke early again but didn’t get straight up. My throat feels dry too. Hopefully it won’t get sore. I’m still feeling some anxiety. I’m not sure why either. Oh well all I can do is knuckle down and get on with things. I need to get lots done today at work. I might work back a little later tonight to get a bit ahead. I’ll see how the day goes. I don’t want to burn out but I also don’t want to get behind.
I’m not sure where my mood is headed. It’s a roller coaster at times that’s for sure! I guess I’ll just buckle up and try to enjoy the ride. Not that it’s enjoyable all of the time either!
Sometimes I feel like I’m not me. I feel like I’m playing a character in a game or I’m acting in a film. I’m not sure why either. I’m not sure if I am or not. Maybe I am. Maybe this is all just a game really. All just a big virtual reality and when death happens we take off the helmet or mask and wake up in the true reality. Maybe it is like that but each time we die/wake up it’s just another game to be played. Maybe this is what samsara really is, this perpetual loop. Maybe enlightenment is when we break that cycle. When the game is over in the truest sense.
