It’s been a busy week this last week and I finally think I’m getting on top of it all. I’m still slightly anxious and I still woke up early too. I don’t like feeling like this. Maybe I should buy some flower essence like rescue remedy.
I’m struggling to meditate these last few days. I’m torn over it too because meditation can release more kundalini which can cause more issues but meditation can also release the anxiety and help to calm me right down. Since coming to realise this I don’t beat myself up if I can’t meditate. I’ve also realised that sometimes we need a break from meditation to help the rest of our body and mind to catch up with itself.
I’m hoping today goes well and is a nice relaxing day. I’m not putting any stress on myself. I’ve tried not to all week and it’s helped. I feel like my mind is slowly starting to slow down again. My thoughts have been racing all week but because I’ve been as mentally calm as I can be it’s not been too much of an issue. Being aware that I can get like this and get through this each time really helps. The past year has been almost a verticle learning curve. Each time I get a high, low or mixed I realise much more about myself afterwards. All I can do is be kind to myself and be patient. I’ve realised that doing the kabbalistic cross helps control things too and I’ve not been doing that. I guess I’ve got plenty to do again.
