well after my rant this morning I feel glad that I spoke with my wife before work and I also phoned her too. Communication can be so hard. I have tried explain what some of my mood changes are like. I asked her to remember her happiest memory or time and imagine it nicer and better. Then I asked her about her lowest point. Then I said to imagine going from one to the other in minutes or hours but maybe with a normal mood etc inbetween. I think she tries really hard to understand me and I love her for that. I’m glad we spoke and that I could try to get things through to her.