Huge anxiety again over several things. I’m still awaiting a payment from someone. There’s a couple of snags on a job that are easily sorted but also one which I can’t get my head around. Money is non existent and I’ve still not paid the mortgage. People think running a business is a money making machine but a very small business is often far from that. It’s famine and feast with mostly famine. I’m not sure what I can do to change things as my head isn’t quite right. I’ve got meds again and am seriously considering going up to a slightly higher dose again. I’ll see once they kick in again at this dose. Death is strong in my mind in many ways. A friend phoned last night to check on me. I’ve not had that happen before. I’m touched by it. He’s a good guy. I’m just not used to it I guess. I walk a lonely path. Maybe it’s time to broaden that pathway.
