I had strange dreams last night. I was trying to find my phone, which I knew was at my aunts house. I was trying to contact my mum, who was kind of there too, but when I phoned my mum I got my cousin instead. All very strange and quite a bad and frustrating dream. My mum died 6 years ago now. I could see her and sense her but couldn’t reach her or contact her. Pretty strange. I guess I felt a bit helpless although I was doing everything in my power to get to her and contact her.
The night before I dreamt I was having a physical fight with my dad. A violent fight, well it was more a case of me beating him up. That 2 nights of strange dreams and both about my parents. I think I need to be aware that my emotions are heightened. Maybe I’m a little tired too. I just need to keep an eye out for any triggers.
I’m not feeling too bad in myself, in fact I feel pretty amazing physically and pretty good mentally. It’s hard to be relaxed about feeling good in case I nose dive, but if I don’t relax and feel good I could make it happen anyway. I guess it’s also easy to tie oneself up in knots and let my thinking run away with me.
