I`ve been on the go all day going fast trying to get lots of things done. I think I felt a little high today too. I skipped twice this morning and then again a short while ago after getting home from work. I felt that I had a little energy that I needed to use up to be able to settle down. I feel a little tired now but I`ve still got lots of get up and go!
What will tomorrow bring? I guess I will need to wait and see how my energy levels are. I certainly feel like I`m on the rise again…
I also feel much more myself than I have for quite a while. I don`t think I had realised how low I had felt until I have started coming out of it. I know my thoughts were still going a thousand miles per hour even though I felt low. I also felt really really negative too, maybe more than I dare to type here just yet. Maybe another time when I feel really good I will not be afraid to share how low my thinking can get and my thoughts too.
Life is very rich and beautiful in so many ways but yet so hard in others. I find I am always trying to get a balance, but never quite getting there. In the past my family would be a priority but work would suffer or vice versa, never a balance, ever. Maybe I will never get there and that is something I will just have to face and live with.
I have known for a long while that my thinking is different but until really recently I had not realised how different. I assumed everyone had the same way of thinking and the same kind of thoughts!
