Still not feeling great. Lots of work to do and I know it’ll fit into place but it is stressing me out. I’m still coughing badly and it’s making me gag when I cough too although I’ve not thrown any sick up only fluid. If I wasn’t so busy at work I’d take some time off. When I get like this I always fear pneumonia creeping back but I’m sure it’s not. I might try to get a doctors appointment today just to be sure though.
Last night was a tough night. I’m struggling. At times like these I wonder who I am. I constantly seem to be trying to find myself but at the same time I know myself.
I had some really vivid stuff going on in my head last night. Visits from the spirit world. There’s lots to work out there. Lots to see about. I guess some would think I’m crazy but others would understand. Along with absolute clarity comes the feeling of being crazy. If you think you’re crazy does that make you sane because you have the ability to question these things. And what of emotions ? How do they affect us ? A logical mind would say emotion is a chemical in the brain but I am a conscious being and where does my consciousness sit?
