Today has been really productive. Ive done the work of at least 2 people today and maybe a day and a quarter too. It’s good to get that much done, but if I’m honest it’s really taken its toll on me physically and mentally. Most of today I’ve felt like I am on the edge of the precipice waiting to just fall backwards into it whilst laying back and relaxing into it. I’m pretty sure I’ve been on a high for at least 5-6 weeks now. I fear the drop off. I fear it mentally and physically. I’ve had a cough, which is only just lingering, for about 6 weeks too. I’m still producing phlegm sometimes when I cough. I’ll live though, I always do. It’s been ages since I last died although over the last few weeks I’ve wished for it several times. Anyway I’m not going anywhere yet. I’ve lots to accomplish.
I need to figure out what I do next business wise and life too. If I didn’t have to work I most certainly wouldn’t. There’s so much more to life than work. I’ve also noticed today my gums are sore. I think I’m getting run down. I’m pretty concerned about my wife and her health too. She went to the doctors yesterday and he sent her straight to hospital for a blood test. She’s feeling worn out and in pain.
I’m still trying to be as present as I can but today I failed miserably until just now. Maybe I should become a spiritual guru with lots of followers and a big mansion type retreat all paid for by my followers of course, then I can be really present! Maybe not though. Onwards and upwards.
