It’s Sunday, obviously, and I’m tired as usual. I’ve just finished reading ‘Diary of a bipolar’ which is a pretty good book on kindle. I enjoyed the guys highs and low points and how he explained his feelings. It’s pretty easy to relate to things when others write them. I was especially interested in how he felt if he threw his rhythms out, I can really relate to that. I’ve only just started getting back into my own and I’ve seriously needed to.
Today my son is having one of those days where he’s doing everything he can go upset his sister and us. I try to understand his feelings but it tends to happen when his mum or I are worn out, quite often both of us. I know people we assume it’s because we are tired that we notice it more but we are very conscious of this and allow for it too. Maybe he picks up on our sensitivity. I really don’t know.
We camped in the garden last night as we had left the tent up since weeks back. Usually I get chilly but last night I was almost too warm! Other than feeling pretty tired I’m feeling ok. I’m not high or especially low. I think I’ve used up my high section up for a short while now! I’ve decided that I need to keep a better balance over myself and my workload and to keep on top of my pricing too. Hopefully it’ll ease any work pressures. I also started working out again yesterday after about a 7 week lay off. I’m down by 11 lbs body weight but that shod soon go back on. I’m also not going to have such lofty aims with working out, and life to to a degree, because it’s easy to get disheartened or to expect too much from myself. Doing this should help to ease stress that I place upon myself. I hope so anyway. Life’s too stressful mostly and too short to get my knickers in a knot too often.
