I have woken feeling a little un-rested. I’m not sure why. I didn’t wake in the night very much, if at all. I was pretty relaxed before bed too. I did my night time workings as has become normal. I think I’m feeling slightly different. My ears are still kind if ringing too. I guess I feel in a slightly altered state of mind or consciousness. Hopefully this is all for the better.
I’ve been wondering lately if to go back and talk to the doctor to get a referral. Last time I had to self refer to the local well being team. I had a telephone conversation with them and they thought I was doing everything I should be. I’ve emailed them recently, I say recently but it was over a month ago, but I’ve not had a reply yet. That’s not so good is it. Having said that I don’t want to have to overly rely on others or burden others. I don’t want too many people poking their noses in either. I have felt pretty ok but I’m wondering if I’m getting worse rather than better. Maybe I’m just more aware of things.
It’s funny how life creeps up on us isn’t it. I’m almost 40 which isn’t so old but yet at the same time I’m wondering where the time has passed. I guess mostly it’s been at work. I’ve been high recently. It seems I’m high more than low. I have had depression though and mixed episodes too. Maybe I spend too much time pondering it all.
