Its a wet start to the week ahead. It’s going to be wet for several days now too, maybe at least until Thursday. I need to finish painting the outside of a house too and have another one to do yet. Luckily I’ve got the inside of a big house to decorate out. I’m reasonably happy this morning too. I woke briefly a couple of times in the night but that’s ok. I did fear I might be anxious this morning but I’m not. I’m actually feeling good. Life is good. I think the internal works I’m carrying out are helping me. It’s certainly keeping me to good sleep habits.
I’ve already practiced this mornings ritual. I’m various as to how much I can write but I can say the divine spark is growing inside me. I’m always cautious about saying these things in case I awaken ego or if it’s ego talking. Anyway my works are going well and there have been moments of inspiration and intervention, both good and also nosey intervention. I’m reading a little about Gnosticism and also the divine spark within oneself. At the moment it’s resonating with me. I’m not saying it’s all a cure for my mind but it’s certainly helping me to stay in a good place. I guess it’s about finding what’s truly important in ones life.
I’ve tried helping a few others to awaken, in the past I’d say I wasted my time, and it’s helped form a good perspective of where I am at, where I’m headed and how I’ve gotten here too. In the end though I have had to cut those people out for my own mental health and for my own spiritual journey to continue.
I guess if I had to offer any advice to another, or myself for that matter, it would be to discover your true inner self. Often we live external lives and not internal. We are caught up in materialism, which is a false system, and forget that we really are good people at heart no matter how bad our thoughts can get. To fully know yourself is a big journey to undertake too. It’s not just about admiring your best points or your worst traits either. Admitting those is a start but actually trying to understand yourself and the reasons further behind them is where you start to find your true self. It can be a very painful journey too and that’s why often those that take some steps stop and back away. I would even suggest that it’s possibly too hard for some to contemplate in this moment in time, but there’s always hope, always the glimmer of divine spark within each and every one of us. Life, however hard, is a good thing and any problems that seem too much can be broken down. Enjoy your day ahead.
