I think it’s time to start to be selfish. People can fuck off. I’m tired of trying to help everyone else and then leaving nothing for myself or for others to fuck me over, ignore me or not be bothered. Maybe I’m being over paranoid but. The amount of times when I’ve been level I’ve tried to help countless others only for the tables to be turned most have fucked off out of the way. A few have actually done the opposite. A few have really surprised me and keep an eye on me. Maybe I’m being paranoid. Nothing is making too much sense now anyway.
Last night I wandered up the garden to go through things again. I’m not sure what I was thinking.
I need to stay off Facebook I know that much. I haven’t deleted my Facebook account because it is a good point of contact for things. I have told everyone on there to fuck off this morning. They can as well.
My head and neck hurt. My ears are ringing and have been for ages. I have been avoiding phone messages too and phone calls. Normally I do the opposite and try to keep on top of those things. I’ll explain my way out of it soon enough and will listen to the messages later.
I could run away. Only problem is I would still be there. I guess there would be other people too and I can’t be arsed with people right now. People are selfish mostly. Out for something or an agenda. Well fuck them.
