It Tuesday again already and things go faster. I didn’t sleep so badly last night, it was disturbed but I feel rested this morning. I didnt get to sleep straight away but that’s ok. I woke at 4 this morning and tossed and turned for a good while before drifting off back to sleep. I then woke at 6:35 and got up. My head hurts. I feel a physical pain behind my right eye. My head is still spinning too. I feel a bit hopeless about everything but I think some inner strength is returning. I’ve been looking more seriously into cancer cures, both alternative and standard. Until more is known it’s hard to figure out what’s what. I’ve read amazing things about Rick Sipmpson oil orPhoenixTears as its sometimes called. It’s a tough one as I don’t want to give up or think all is lost but I don’t want to get delusional and believe in false hope.
This morning we have an appointment with a child psychologist with my son. I’ve hardly had time to think about any of it the last few days. I’m hoping it’s going to be a positive meeting and we can start to get some things sorted as although it’s in the back of my mind it is still another worry. I’ve realised that I seem to worry far more than I ever did only a few years ago. And so the merry ride continues. Dancing pegs and all.
Work has gone up a gear. I had kind of thought it would and whenever there’s some kind of crisis it seems to do it all the more. In really really need to be careful and keep an eye on it all because it feels like I’m loosing it again. I’m really fearful of that. Reality is becoming very blurred…. Endless Risset rhthymns in my head.
