Last night I ended up pretty high. My wife even told me to calm things down at 9:30pm as the children were excited by it all. I stayed downstairs while she got them sorted. It was just after midnight when I turned the light off to go to sleep and it took a short while to sleep. At1:45am my son woke up needing a pee and a drink and then he wanted the light left on as he was too hot and wanted his duvet off him. This broke my sleep and it took a lot of effort not to get up and go online or watch a film. I was awake about 6 and feeling superb. I lay in bed until 6:20 and then got up. I’m now feeling a bit anxious and wired and was just gagging but wasn’t sick. It 6:47. I’m not sure what today will bring either. A friend on Facebook messaged me last night to tell me I’m getting ‘worse’ and I need to take care. I’m not sure how to take that really.
Yesterday I finished work early and came home and had a sleep as my stomach was uneasy and I had pain in my right side. I cancelled my drumming lesson too as I’m not at my best. I must of switched moods maybe 10 or more times yesterday. I had changed mood 4 times before 9:30.
Last night I didn’t have anxiety before bed which is good. I am anxious now though and that’s probably why I gagged and nearly threw up. I’m unsure how I will be on Monday but I can hopefully show them this blog. If I can then maybe they’re reading this. ‘Hello from the future’. Anyway I’m taking each day as it comes now and each hour and minute as it comes. It is what it is.
