I have realised I’ve not had a good memory lately but it was brought home to me tonight when chatting with someone o line tonight. They told me to stop repeating myself because I had already told them a few days ago. To others it just seems like I’m a bit lively and jokey and that I’m having a laugh saying mad things and saying I don’t remember stuff. Earlier today I was talking with someone at work and they were surprised by some things I told them. They were shocked. They said they thought I was just a bit bubbly and lively. It all came out because they walked in on me as I was facing a fridge doing some strange motion and muttering away! Luckily they just thought there wasn’t any milk but I did feel silly and that I needed to explain some stuff ! So much has been going on that a day has seemed like having a weeks worth of thoughts and happenings fitted into it. I’m bonkers but mostly it’s ok although at times it’s unbearable. I’m never sure which is coming. It’s not even a battle because it just hits me like a bus. Wallop. I guess I ought to read back through some of the posts I’ve written over the last few days and weeks. Or maybe I shouldn’t! Hahahaha. It is what it is. I would say I feel a bit level right now but I know it would be wrong as I’m still not fully there. Half hour ago I felt shattered but now I’m waking right up. Any my memory seems shot and shit at times. I’ve had a few people tell me not to say too much on Facebook because I have a business but I have others saying I’m doing well for being brutally honest about my head. Fuck knows what is right. Haha
