Today hasn’t been the best of days so far mood wise. I’m not as far as I wanted to be on a job either. I’m certainly Eeyore today rather than Tigger! I’ve not got any bounce in me. I’m sitting on the side of the road in my van waiting to go and look at some work and could quite happily, or unhappily, sit here and go to sleep. I really can’t be bothered with much now. There’s lots I need to do when I get home too.
I know this feeling will pass. I didn’t notice the onset or any triggers this time either. I’m really tired. Tired of lots of things. Money tires me. Debt tires me too. I feel like a slave. Earlier I had thoughts about packing my business up and saying f*ck it to everything. I wish I knew of a trigger for it because I don’t feel very good at all. I’m sick and tired of dusting myself down and always carrying on. Why can’t I say sod it to everything? Why do I have to keep trudging on? Is it all worth it? I feel like by the time I’m out of debt or have spare time to do the things I want to do I’ll be too old to do them properly. I see it so often with others. All work work work. I’m sure I sound selfish, but I don’t care. Sod it.
