I’ve slept about. 8 1/2 hours last night but I’m feeling shattered right now. I could go back to bed. My stomach feels really empty. I slept pretty solidly but feel like my dreams were so active that I didn’t get any rest. I’m a bit concerned in case I’m headed down. I certainly feel like I’m mixed at the moment. Life is just happening. I think I need to get off the forum I’ve joined as I’m getting addicted to it. It’s because my mind is unsettled. I’m wondering if being on it and reading stuff are actually triggers. I’ll only find out if I get stronger and avoid it. I feel so week and feeble over things like this these days because I’m usually really strong willed. If it is a trigger then I guess the only way forwards is to avoid any kind of social interaction for a while again, possibly forever. I’m not sure. Maybe I do need to become a hermit after all. Maybe it’s part of my path to enlightenment. It seems my path is always a winding one. I need to try to meditate this morning as I’ve really struggled with it lately and have hardly meditated at all. I guess I need to relax. That is definitely what I need to do.
