The world seems pretty joyless to me at the moment.  Seeing what’s going on and what’s being pushed forwards is quite a scary thing.  I think they’re trying to beat people down bit by bit.  The economy will inevitably crash, which I think is preplanned.  Times will get tough. Depopulation is here in some respects.  Restrictions will go on far longer than most dare to think about.  People think that by doing everything the government tells them is the best way and that anyone who questions things are putting loves at risk, are ‘killing granny, are Covid deniers etcetera. These sane people say that you mustn’t question the science and the science is the only way out of it are fools.  The whole idea of science IS to question things.  It’s there to truly test things.  The idea of political opposition should be to question the government and not just blindly go along with things.  There are huge warning signs as to where this usually leads.  Governments do NOT relinquish power easily.  This is not going to go away by people being vaccinated.  People are making up their own false narratives of how doing x, y or z will be how we get out of this.  They are false.  This control over the people needs to be seen for what it is.  Control.  People cannot press their MP’s hard anymore. The best you can do is email or leave a voicemail.  No more face to face meetings.  They’re becoming faceless.  Things that have been put in place have nefarious ends to them.  

Life is very strange for most of us right now.  So many undercurrents in the world. Everything is changing.  They don’t want us going back to where we were.  They want The Great Reset and the ‘new normal’ and to 6uild 6ack 6etter.  I have drawn my line in the sand.  I will stand firm.  Things will get tougher as the year goes on.  I won’t take an experimental jibjab.  Wise men say “only fools rush in”. Very true.  Boiling frog time for so many.  With all what has been going on I missed a friends birthday.  Happy belated birthday.

  I decided that I can live without medication if needed or wanted.  However I did go back on them for now.  If I decide to come off them again, invariably I will, I’ll do it when I can be more disciplined with daytime activities. Christmas holidays was a good time but not enough structure.  

Well here we are now in  2021.  What to say? Hmmm.  Well I’ve now been meds free for 3 weeks. I’ve had 2 weeks off work over Christmas and I’m not reading to go full pelt again. We are now back in a national lockdown in England, the rest of the UK are too, but I have been fully expecting it so I’m not at all shocked.  I’m sure this one will go on until at least April, possibly longer, and will cause untold misery for many and it will also play on people’s mental health even more because it’s winter and it feels like it’s been going on almost forever.  There’s a huge push from government for people to be vaccinated with one of the brand new vaccines that have been pushed through, testing is still ongoing and I know Pfizer have said it’ll be about 24 months before results from stage 3 of testing are in.  So much is going on behind the scenes from governments twisting figures and outright lying about facts and figures. Schools here were due to open and due to start testing students weekly using the lateral flow tests even though The British Medical Journal have said in an online article, dated 23rd December, that theres a high number of false positives from these. The PCR tests give high percentages of false positives too.
Link To BMJ article: 

https://www.bmj.com/content/371/bmj.m4941

There a hell of a lot more going on which I’ve bitten my tongue over for months but a lot of what’s going on is to do with the World Economic Forum’s ‘Great Reset’.  You can find lots of info out about this on their own website and their own YouTube channel. Prince Charles fully backs it and spears in some of their videos.  Link to their website: 

https://www.weforum.org/great-reset/         

Link to their YouTube channel :  

https://youtube.com/worldeconomicforum

   I honestly think we are in for one hell of a rough ride from now onwards. Things are changing and those changes are accelerating….

2021 will soon be here.  Another year gone by. Another year older.  Another year closer to old age and death I guess.  I don’t see it being better than 2020.  In fact I see things getting worse.  Our Government are fudging facts and figures of the virus to suit their political agendas.  In fact it’s a much bigger agenda going on. A reset.  Our government are ignoring independent experts and sticking to those they trust will give them the ‘facts and figures’ they require while also ignoring things the WHO have said.  I’d guess they’re also sending the billions they’re continuing to spend to friends of theirs via companies they own.  All very dodgy.  Fuckers.  Nefarious plans are afoot no doubt.

I had a brief foray back on faceache last night for a few hours but it’s all much of a muchness and I’m left feeling like a alien abductee seeing as I now have hours of missing time from my life again.  Oh well at least I’m off it again.    Next year should be a busy year regarding work so I’ll knuckle down and crack on with that.  One of my customers has said they’ve about 6 months worth of work for me to do and I’ve already got plenty of work on.   

I’m off work today, a Friday, and might be off all weekend.  Yesterday I had something weird happen. It was maybe vertigo.  I was on a stepladder, only on the first step, and I stepped off staggering sideways to my left.  It felt like I was unbalanced.  It happened a few times and my head didn’t feel right all day.  Very strange indeed.   I finished work early and went to bed for 2 hours.  The night before my sleep was disturbed by Kara and Rhiannon arguing for about an hour after 10pm.  I’d fallen asleep and it woke me up.  It took until maybe 1:30am to get back to sleep and it felt like my mood was going up a bit. I’ve had disturbing dreams for almost a week now too, although last night was better.   I need to keep track of it because my thinking isn’t what it should be.  It’s slightly skewed.  Maybe it was just tiredness yesterday.  It didn’t stop me going to Krav Maga.  I need to keep an eye on it. There’s also some paranoia in my dreams etc and a bit in waking life too for the last week or so.  It’ll pass I’m sure.  It’s a tricky time of year that’s for sure.  Triggers etcetera.  I must keep vigilant.  

I’m sitting here wondering what the rest of this year holds but more so what 2021 has in store.  I think the UK will have another lockdown early next year and more people will question it.  Things will be exasperated.  More people will end up homeless and or out of work.  There’s unrest griwing that’s for sure. So far I’ve been pretty mentally stable.  I’ve been contemplating trying to come of my meds.  I need to ponder it deeper I think.  Weighing up the pros and cons has to be done when I’m not tired and not working so much. The risks of no meds would be possible deep depression and possible mania. Although I’ve learnt so much about myself the last 4-5 years I think I understand it all so much better, especially the warning signs of episodes.    

I’ve meant to blog for a day or two but someone has tried hacking the website so I’ve not been able to.

Autumn is here.  Winter is yet to come.  The day’s are so short. England is locked down until at least 2nd  December.  I think it’ll be longer even though it was announced today there’s a vaccine that’s 90% efficient.  There’s so much shit going on in the world. I think our lockdown will be extended.  There’s a push for The Great Reset.  There’s a push for Agenda 21 and Agenda 30.  I’ve known about both ‘Agendas’ for a long while.  Agenda 21 I knew about a few years back.  We are being pushed into a totalitarian world.  The UK is now a police state if you look up the definition of it. The police are going by government decisions and guidelines.  They’re doing the governments bidding.  People are living in fear.  They’re having fear pushed upon them by the government and mainstream media.  People are scared.  It’s wrong.  We have a rogue government in England. They’ve lied to the people knowingly and willingly.  They’ve falsified the numbers of infections and deaths. They’ve falsified their projected infections.  All of this knowingly.  It has to be brought to account.  We have to be aware of what’s really going on.  And yes I sound paranoid but no I’m not.  I’m actually well. It’s just there are nefarious plans in place and being acted out.  It’s really not good.  

I’m feeling that I’m withdrawing even more from others and society.  It seems like it’s silly season on steroids right now.  There’s so much unrest in the world.  Governments around the world are pushing Agendas that are not necessarily in the best interests of their people.   Most don’t see it but lots are starting to.  It’s funny because talking about these things could sound paranoid if it weren’t for the fact they’ve put all the information out in documents that anyone can read.

 I often wonder if I’m a fake person. I see so many that are and the saying goes something along the lines of you see in others what you are.  However that doesn’t ring true for sociopaths and psychopaths I’d guess.  I’m questioning myself and my existence again too.  I know dark times are coming and I’m not going to close my eyes to it either.  We should all be very very aware of it all.

I’m saying too much already.

Autumn is here early this year.  It seemed to arrive right at the start of September and is at least 6 weeks ahead of usual.  Does it mean we will get a longer harder winter? Who knows.  I hope not because I see this winter as being tricky enough as it is.  There seems to be an air of strangeness around but maybe it’s just me.  People seem more agitated and easily angered.  I’d guess it’s to be expected with hardships and job losses for many people. It’s been exceptionally wet too.  Barely a day without rain for the last 5 or so weeks.   It’s grey most days and feels bleak.  Maybe it’s a reflection of this in people that seems so grey.  What really is going on?  I’ve a good idea.  Agendas are being pushed but I’m having to step away from it as the bigger picture, if true, is bleak.  I’ll keep a good eye as often as I can.  I’m not religious but there certainly are parallels to The Book of Revelation.  Maybe it’s easy to find these links and commonalities though if we try.  I guess everyone who has lived and been religious could think they’re in the end times or find parallels.   As humans we do like to find patterns and hidden meanings in things.  It’s what we do.    Keep well and keep moving forwards.  What will come will come.