I’ve suffered lots of anxiety in the last few years and late 2012 into early2013 I had a few very paranoid episodes.
I’ve also wondered if my wife has munchausen by proxy and that I’m very normal and my feelings are a projection of her. That’s just crazy on my behalf, but until I spoke about it I believed it could easily be true.
I guess my mind is starting to do overtime again. It just keeps churning away at things. Meditation and Qigong do help me quieten it though.
I’ve been vegetarian for over 8 months now and alcohol and coffee free for about as long. It’s had quite an impact on how I can deal with things in life. Stress doesn’t hit me like it used to. Although it does still affect me very adversely.
I do still struggle with racing thoughts. I don’t get as angry though, well I don’t think I do. I can be very demanding on myself and on those working with me. I have started exercising again too which coupled with a good diet does ease things a little.
My mind seems to of slowed as the day has gone on. At times my mind can jump from one subject to several others in what seems like a split second. I have described the speed of my mind as being like how Sherlock Holmes’ mind flies through things, how funny that today I read that the character of Holmes was very probably bipolar.
At times i get caught up in things. I call it passion, others call it obsessiveness. I guess that’s all part of being me. The struggles I have daily with myself, the times when I’m so super confident that others draw energy off me too are all part of what goes on inside.
Hi, I decided to start this blog to see where it leads me. I am a builder and very probably bipolar. I`m hoping to learn more about bipolar disorder and also post my views of my life and life in general, my thoughts on my life and exactly how I`m feeling.
Life can be tough for any of us, let alone when we are facing mental health issues as well as the daily grind of life.
Lets see where life takes us