So far it’s been a crazy busy year. We’ve been pushing ahead with the business and work. We’ve set things in motion for the future. I’ve spent lots of time building things up and using the compound effect. It’s all good. Any spare time I have I’m reading self improvement and or business books. I’ve a few things I’m working on outside of the building business and I’ve been mentoring a couple of people. One of whom is seriously pushing their life and goals forwards. In fact I convinced them to start doing what was a goal for 10 years time now! They’re doing great too.
Fynn is reading a lot about business and self improvement too. He’s come on in life so much this year and he and I have a reasonably good structure to life. He’s thriving on it. Previously it was too chaotic for him. We eat at certain times now and eat better than ever. It’s all good. He keeps an eye out for new investment opportunities each day and checks on things each morning. He’s a huge asset to the business and I’m slowly reaching bing him all aspects of it.
I’ve not blogged much this year as things have been so busy but it’s something I want to get back to. So much has changed in life for the better and I’d seriously like to help more people. I should probably start writing some reviews on the books I read, many have been life changing regarding investing and business. It’s funny to think how mentally unwell I was for so long and I understand the catalysts much more now. Major lifestyle changes have seriously helped this coupled with mindset changes. It’s all good.
Early hours of Friday morning I got an email from the court saying I could apply for the final order of the divorce. I saw it when I woke up and signed in to sign what needed signing. It said on the screen that there wasn’t an issue and I should hear that the marriage had ended within a few days. Hours later I received another email telling me I was now divorced! It’s quite strange to think I’m now unmarried so to speak. It was a weird feeling but also another step along the road of my life. There’s still the financial order to organise, but that should be reasonably straight forwards, and the house to sell. When that’s all done and dusted we can both move forwards in life. Fynn and I have some amazing plans and goals to achieve, lots already underway. He really has become an amazing young man with a really strong work ethic, he’s reading lots, he’s investing lots and he’s growing lots as a person too since the start of the year. So much has happened and so much is going on. Life really is amazing and a gift which I’m massively grateful for. I really do wish Kara the best in life from here onwards. She is still living with her elderly mum along with Rhiannon. Who knows what her future holds but her life, and her finances, are fully in her hands now.
Life really is a beautiful thing isn’t it. Onwards and upwards.
Yesterday was a bank holiday here in the UK so Fynn and I had a day off. We drive to Belvoir Castle near Grantham. What an amazing place it really is. We went in the castle for a look and then had a very nice lunch in the cafe/restaurant. We both had steak and ale pie the chocolate brownie for dessert. Since we’ve been changing our mindsets, and also due to a book I’m reading, there were no price limits on what we did or what we ate. We had a great time. After lunch we walked around some of the grounds and gardens before driving home and having steak, lamb chops and burgers for dinner, yes I’m still pretty much on the carnivore diet. Life really is good. We had tried to fit in visiting there in early May when we went to Derbyshire first a weekend but didn’t want to hurry our last day there when we visited Chatsworth House, which is another absolutely beautiful house. We are now going to join Historic Houses which will give us either free entry or a discount at other historic places to visit. All part of our changing lives and part of a much bigger plan too. Life goes on regardless of what we do so I think it’s best to make the absolute best of it. We’re looking at our futures and we’re looking at investments while doing it too.
Wow! Life is moving in such a beautiful way now. All kinds of things are happening and underway. The divorce is 1/2 way through. Fynn is working with me pretty much full time now and is learning fast. He’s also setting himself goals at work as well as life. He now also has goals written out each month as well as longer term goals. He’s reading for at least 1/2 hour each day now too and has already read Think And Grow Rich. He’s moved onto The Compound Effect, which he’s ploughing through. I bought him a copy of The Secret Of The Ages, which he might read next but we e also got The Psychology Of Money, Secrets Of The Millionaire Mind, Rich Habits and The Science Of Getting Rich lined up ready too. We are both now investing in stocks and shares and he’s keeping an eye on that each morning too. He’s also putting money aside each month into an ETF of Indian companies for longer term and also into Trading 212’s 5.2% interest earning scheme so that he has “opportunity money” at the ready to deploy if a good opportunity arises plus it’s earning some interest too. I’ve a very good friend who I’ve now got investing too and she’s picked some good shares too. One of which is only 3 weeks old trading on Trading 212 and is a gold and other precious metals exploration company. Life really is good. The house is on the market too and if it sells around the marketed price it will give Kara a good start in the next part of her life if she uses it well. I really do wish her the best in life from here onwards too. I’m certainly making the best of life now. It’s all good.
Life is changing again. The house will be going on the market soon once it’s tidier and I’m looking forwards to moving on. Kara still has a lot of stuff to get shifted but is slowly making some effort since I’ve been getting things tidied. She and Rhiannon moved to her mums about 7 weeks ago now. Fynn is still living with me and will move with me once the house is sold. The house is much cleaner and we are eating better and at a regular time in the evening too! He’s working with me too and his goals in life are similar to mine. He’s got a great work ethic and it will see him go far in life. My focus now is back to forging ahead in life and business and helping Fynn gain more confidence, it’s come on lots since Kara and Rhiannon moved out and several customers have pointed out he’s happier and more confident. I had a chat with the Youth Project a few weeks back, as I had to drop him off there because Kara was late yet again in arriving to pick him up and luckily I was here, she was over 40 minutes late coming to pick him up on his birthday too which was very disrespectful seeing as she arranged the time with him and he was quite upset about it, and they said he speaks highly of me and all the things we do together. Kara and I have been separated about 16 months now and divorce has been underway around 3 months but she’d not mentioned a thing to the youth project about the separation and they were quite surprised. I also gave them Fynn’s own bank details so his wages can go in his own bank rather than the joint account because Kara hadn’t sorted that yet either. I know that in the past she had used his wages from the joint account before paying them into his account at a later date. Several years ago she also emptied Fynn and Rhiannon’s bank accounts of about £6-7k to spend the money on the horses. It was money I had put in there every month to save for their futures only for their mother to take it away and spend on the horses she had on loan. She was the only person able to access their accounts too! Fynn has seen this too because he’s been back through his online statements. Rhiannon will have access to her accounts too now she’s 18 and will be able to see how much was taken too. So many other things have come to light but I’m not sure whether I’ll mention those or not. Suffice to say I worked my arse off constantly trying to get us ahead as a family only for it to be blown away on other things. I was paying Kara a monthly wage of a little under £800 a month too as well as her working the 2 part time jobs she has and I’m wondering where a fair chunk of all that went, I’m guessing that was the horses and her sheep too because I pay almost all of the household bills and was paying her mobile phone bill, her car road tax, all of her cars garage bills and I even used to pay her tax bill each year and she used to often berate me about not having enough money and mocked me over many things. She’s accused me of some nasty things too yet right up until several days after we separated she stayed sleeping in the same bed as me. I’ll leave it there for now though! Life is getting better.
EDIT: I have also been in touch with the psychologist I used to see at the mental health hospital regarding getting private therapy as there’s so much more that I should probably talk with her about.
Thankfully Christmas Day is over. It was the last one we will probably spend together as a family. I broke my own rules and had a drink. It was going well until I made a stupid error of judgement and Kara and I ended up arguing. I shouldn’t have drank and shouldn’t have been a fool and messaged someone that I shouldn’t have telling them things that are none of my business. Very early next year I want to get this house sold because we need to live apart now and although mostly we get on ok it is still toxic at times. Both of us have made fuck ups recently and it was in part due to her recent one why I messaged someone yesterday but deleted it almost straight away before they read it. Today won’t be easy but it will pass. Tomorrow I go away alone for a few days which is a good thing. Life has its ups and downs but it will get better for both of us from here onwards.
Seeing as it’s Boxing Day I’d like to wish an absent friend a Happy Birthday. You know who you are.
Life is pretty busy at the minute. I’m pushing the business along and it’s going well. Life is changing fast though. I’ve filed for divorce and want the house sold asap. Too much has gone on to mention but recently I took off for 8 days and visited loads of places in the UK. I didn’t make it to Scotland but did get near the bottom of Cornwall and into wales. I met 4 virtual friends in real life and stayed with some of them while away. It’s made me reconsider life and I might very well leave the UK eventually. My plans from earlier in the year still stand. Fynn wants to live with me which I think is for the best. He will be working with me soon. So many other things going on in life but I can’t mention them yet but some of it will be life changing again! It’s all good. In fact its utterly brilliant. Kara and I both need to move on. She’s already started in some respects. I guess I have too but enough of that for now. The sooner we can sell the house the better in my opinion. I want my money out to invest. I know she will need her half to live off. Fortunately for the most part we still get on quite well. I still take her a cup of tea up to her in her room in the morning. I think eventually once it’s all settled and dealt with we will get on reasonably ok but who knows! All I know is I’m finally falling in love with the person I should’ve loved all along….myself! It’s sad to realise I’ve not even liked myself at times let alone loved being me. That changed while away. My confidence is back up and lots who actually know me would get quite a surprise if they saw me now as I’m very lean and muscular and twice last week I saw people who’d not seen me for 3 or so months and they actually didn’t recognise me! I now shave almost every day too as well as go to a very good Turkish barber for the full works once a month. It’s amazing how when one takes care of themselves, learns to love themselves and has great confidence that lots of the opposite sex suddenly become very interested! Enough of that for now though! I’m still manifesting my perfect dream life snd it’s falling into place nicely too. Life really is beautiful.
The last 2 months I’ve taken my foot off the accelerator regarding work and a few other things. I’ve still earned bloody good money. I needed to for some personal reasons and to build some bridges again. I’ve kept my morning routine going though. It keeps me focused. I’m now on week 3 of working out again and I’m very lean. In fact I weigh 13st 6lbs now which is the lightest I’ve been for maybe 20 years. I’m still strong and holding muscle. Some of the weight loss was huge anxiety but I’m past that. It’s amazing being this lean. I borrowed Fynns belt on Sunday and used the same hole he uses but could’ve used the next one down.
I figure it’s now time to focus on building my business more again now and getting Fynn to work for me 3 days a week. maybe it’s time to go more fully back into monk mode. Maybe it’s time to get totally focused on my goals of vast wealth and investing so I can get off grid asap. Throughout everything I’ve still kept a focus on investments and have swapped my portfolio about a bit too. Hopefully in the next bull market I can sell my crypto for £200k+. Possibly more. Life is good.
Today I’m in huge mental pain. It’s ducking hard to deal with. I’ve hardly slept. I’ll survive. I can’t talk about it right now other than to say I had a huge kick in the guts yesterday. I’m trying to do my absolute best for someone that I love dearly but fuck me I’m hurting today. Watching someone you care about living out a mental breakdown is fucking hard. Watching them glitter hours away online distracting themselves and doing other things too really is hard. I’m going to have to contemplate on what my actions will be from here forwards. My kids come first. If they’re hurting then I will need to act. I’m in no hurry to take action yet though as I really do want to support the person I’m trying to help. What hurts is I cannot talk to others about it.